Thank you to every one who read my last few blogs on my battle with mental illness, and double thank you to those of you who shared the link to this blog on your own page. I feel like the more folks that hear my story the better chance I have of reaching at least one person who can really identify with and benefit from my experiences.
I can’t seem to find the words to properly describe just how freeing it has been to finally share all of this….madness. The overwhelmingly heartfelt responses that i got, from the comments section, to personal messages, to real personal interactions has led to a tremendous break through that I had never imagined possible. And I feel I have all of you to thank for that.
I truly haven’t felt like “me” in decades…until a week ago. Believe me when I tell you that I have tried to self medicate myself with my fare share of drugs, both prescribed and …not so prescribed (I’ve taken month’s off of work to follow jam bands around the country if that gives you any clue….thumbs up Tidwell, vegi-burritos and two beers for five bucks) but none of them have ever come close taking this mental/emotional weight off my shoulders like sharing did.
I feel like I’m a Re-born Agnostic. My future looks open and free again. I don’t feel like i have to voluntarily put myself into “solitary confinement” anymore. It’s like I’m Peter Pan again and world is my Neverland (The Lost Boys tree house Neverland not to be confused with the pedophile playground built buy the King of Pop).
The struggle isn’t over, not by a long shot. I still have a lot more to deal with and a lot more to tell but because writing about my depression takes an emotional toll, I can’t make this whole blog about that. I am a man, I am more complex then any one issue. My goal is to put out content on at least a weekly basis and the main focus will remain on mental health issues and what we as a country can do to help but I may dabble in politics, art and other societal issues from time to time, for my own sanity (no pun intended).
And just to kick a dead horse, once again, thank you all from the bottom of my heart for supporting me in this project.